Certain in Uncertainty

09 May 2011

Uncertainty is a part of life as a mum, isn’t it? Whether it’s wondering what your birth experience will be like, or whether your baby will sleep through the night.

My first Mother’s Day was a bright spring morning in Amsterdam. I must admit, I don’t remember the gift that my 8 month-old son and husband gave me. What I do remember is this…with the months of uncertainty that were to follow, God wanted me to know that some things were certain.

I arrived with my son at the school building where our church services took place. My husband was music director for the services that morning, and had arrived earlier. In the foyer, a friend who’d attended the first service said that God had wonderful things in store for us.

After settling my son into the creche I went to stand with my husband behind the sound desk. This was a special day, as it was also our seventh wedding anniversary!

As the service proceeded those who had participated in baptism classes were asked to come forward. Our Pastor mentioned that, as had happened in the first service, he was making an open invitation for others, sensing that God had plans for others to be baptised. Now, I was happy that my parents had baptised me as a child, but as he mentioned it my heart began racing. Have you ever had the feeling of floating on a cloud? That’s what it felt like. God was carrying me, much like I had been carrying my son, so before I knew it I was at the front of the auditorium.

My husband had rushed to get my son from the creche, so that they were both there with me. The microphone was passed on to each baptism candidate and I scrounged for the words in my shaky voice, “God wants me to know that HE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME!”

James 1:17 (which we had used on our son’s birth announcement) reminded me that “Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights.” MY SON, MY HUSBAND and MY LIFE were all gifts that God had blessed me with, not to mention the things that He had in store for me! Deciding to return to Australia with a young child, without any job prospects, God didn’t want me to worry.

He also gave me these words in Matthew 6, “Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?  Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?”

Following an afternoon of celebrations with our friends I responded with this in my journal…

“I THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU for giving the life of your Son for ME! AMEN”

Alice Kan

Blog Content Manager

3 Responses to “Certain in Uncertainty”

  1. cath says:

    I love that passage from Matthew. Thanks for sharing a part of your story Al. xx

  2. Kylie A says:

    Tears flowing…Thanks for sharing Alice.
    How many times have I read that passage and it not meant anywhere near as much as it did as I read it just now. – Right time, right place…right blog 🙂

  3. Jillian says:

    Thanks for sharing Alice. I think I needed to be reminded of the Matthew 6 passage today.

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